i have this dream inside of me. Today was SUPER BORING. I was half dead DEAD in Double HSIE seriously. I realised in the morning that I didn't do my PDHPE homework which was that we had to get a newspaper article about a car accident. I run to the library with Neelam to get a newspaper article from the internet. When I get to PDHPE , Miss doesn't even check the homework T_T In Maths , we started on Futher Triginomtery which I 30 percent understood it. In Religion , it was 90 percent bludge. We had silent reading for the first 20 minutes then Sir was just out of the classroom for majority of the class time. In Science , I was half day dreaming. I came up with this great word though for the definition of pollution : Contamination of a human resource. That seriously came from my own brain. As you can see , it was just another boring day at my local high school.

I came up with this schedule for today which I didn't exactly follow :

Maths = 4: 30 - 5 : 30

Commerce = 5 : 30 - 6 : 30

History = 6 : 30 - 7 : 00

Science = 7 : 00 - 8 : 00

It didn't go as planned really. I did Maths & that 's about it. Tomorrow , I'm seriously going to continue this ! I PROMISE D:

well I'm off to continue these assignments.

till next blog

x  ¶ 6:25 PM 0 Comments

  where's the love these days? WOOOHOOO ! Its the weekend guys , finally my mind off school for a bit despite the assignments that need to be finished. Tomorrow , I plan to meet with Priyam , Rebeka & Carol at the library and chill (: I might do a photoshoot of Rebeka YIHEE ! :D I need to get Maths & PDHPE done this weekend I aim for , but I ned to finish PDHPE like by Monday. I have a lot of library books I need to return D: I bet their all overdue and I'm going to return them tomorrow I PROMISE ! D:

Alright, where's the love these days? Everyone 's fighting & bitching about each other , sometimes I think that what 's the point? Being a lady , I know gossip is a thing each lady does but to be honest , it does get tiring . For the lads , it'll be bashups & jumping. Why can't everyone just accept everyone for who they are? If you don't like someone , deal with it because most probably they won't change for you. In Mr. Tymoc 's words " That 's just the way it is" LMFAO x 100.

My body feels sore at the moment but I have a smile on my face because I know its the weekend :) I went to the counsellor today & things got emotional. I started crying and its been ages since I've cried in the counsellor room. The last time I cried was my first actual counsellor meeting with Heather. It was weird because all of a sudden , I burst into tears. It really helped though especially the acupunture stuff she did with me :) She 's amazing ! :D I felt a whole lot better & got things sorted out in a way.

I did my HSIE response today & boy it wasn't the best but not the worst. There wasn't enough time & everyone felt the need for more time. For PDHPE , I feel the desperation of help. Our PDHPE dance is NOT getting anywhere -.- In English , we continued to watch Macbeth. The school has this spelling bee thing going on but OMG its been ages since I've done a spelling bee. I remember when I was in the U.S.A , I used to be a pretty good speller ( not being boastful ) but I 'm not sure about now :( I'll just do my best & see how I go hey?

Homecoming.Assignment Notifications.Folder.Empty Glass. Calendar.

Just some stuff on my desk LOL.



well I'm off for now guys ; have a good weekend !

till next blog

x  ¶ 4:14 PM 0 Comments

  there's nothing to do & there's nothing to say. I've always though of Lily Allen as a singing sensation & I love all her songs , but her single " 22 " is simply amazing ! Its so stuck in my head and its the best alarm song out that 's what I can tell you now LOL. My school day was "bery" boring. My HSIE Vietnam war incursion was very interesting. I got a lot of facts about the Vietnam War but I think it went too long which made me very sleepy & unsettled in my seat. We went over recess so we got an extended recess so that meant a bit of Period 3 which was Religion for me was taken of. I did my English homework which consisted of twelve questions which I completely forgot about ! Last night , one of my classmates Chantelle , but everyone calls her Tent reminded me about it . I left my English book in my locker so OMG to that D: At first , I thought I had English in period 4 but really I had in period 5 ! In the end , I finished it all in Religion. The frustrating thing though is that Ms didn't even check it D: which is good and bad in a way. Instead we continued watching Macbeth which was very humourous in some bits LMFAO.

Tomorrow , I might be going to Elyssa 's crib to do some PDHPE assignmenting styles. I seriously thought that convincing my mother would be hard but it was easier than expected. I'm expecting a tiring day tomorrow so I wouldn't be suprised if I'm sore tomorrow D:

I need to gather photos for my PDHPE scrapbooking assignment so I'm off !

till next blog

x  ¶ 7:32 PM 0 Comments

  Hilariously Stupid Conversation in the Morning. Scene : Two girls chatting , one girl eating chocolate for breakfast.
Girl 1 : dont eat too much chocolate , you'll get diabetes.
Girl 2 : its ok , i brush my teeth.
HAHAHAHAHA x 10 !  ¶ 6:04 PM 0 Comments

  two of days of school. already a pain in the arse. Its Tuesday , and OMG my head is hurting already. My school life isn't the best. Sometimes , I absolutely feel fucked up man but hey you gotta be strong & keep your head high. There's the people that care for you & we should know who matters & who doesn't. How did my Maths test go? Well , it was meant to be on Monday but it got postponed because of the bus strike (which I will explain further later on) so it was pure happiness & bliss for me ! :D I had it today but at least I was feeling a bit more comofortable on what I was doing so yeah. I'll still fail though so boo D:

On Monday , I wasn't aware that the buses were on strike today but good thing we have the Nagle Mini Bus. ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM ! If we didn't have a mini school bus , I would have been waiting there along with other girls like a total idiot. I didn't even know about this strike. The bus went back and forth because not everyone could fit , but it was frustrating because the news cameras were there & our school was in the news ! INSANITY D: I would have been in the news because as soon as I left , the remaining people got to be on TV ! D: Man, my chance of fame has been demolished HAHAHAHA. The bus driver which is my Commerce, HSIE & Homeroom teacher is quite a scary driver. I was scared that he was going to go the wrong way or something ( he has quite a reputation at the school ) and everyone was being sarcasticly panicking. It was funny really LOL.

Today, it was really boring. It went a bti fast but not as fast as I wanted to D: This morning , I overheard two girls having a conversation. I will post that up on a chat post :) I found it quite hilariously stupid LOL. I noticed that I wear my mood ring these days & I have no idea why. Even though my school has a jewellery policy , I still wear it LOL. I have an HSIE incursion tomorrow when some Vietnam War veterans are coming over to share their experience. It should be very intresting and fascinating :) Primary Source Styles HAHAHAH.

I have the following to do during this weekend

- PDHPE Assignment ( Start gathering photos tonight & due on Monday)

- Prepare for HSIE on Friday ( I'll do that tomorrow )

- Chill @ Btown with Priyam & Rebeka. ( Good time to get my mind off the stress ! although Btown can get VERY boring but oh well )

- Buy scrapbooking materials for PDHPE assi !

- Get a move on with Science & do my experiment ( maybe Sunday or next week =/ )

that 's all I can remember really -.- I have a feeling there's two I forgot but oh well , I can't be bothered getting my diary.

well I'm off to relax !

till next blog

x  ¶ 6:02 PM 0 Comments

  some things never change. This is in reference to my last blog ; new beginnings. My mother & I are back to normal and I'm not at least a percent suprised about it. She even cancelled that 50 dollar allownace thing. Fuck her , I'm sick of her bullshit behaviour. I didn't have the best day today actually , I feel quite crap at the moment but not the worse I guess , even though I know I have a Maths exam tomorrow about Quadratic Equations and I don't even get the fuck what I'm doing , well let 's just hope some miracle happens and that I have the mind of Albert Einstein during the exam yes? Man, I don't feel like going to school tomorrow. I'm having those lazy days yes yes -.- I need holidays NOWWWWWWW ! D: I didn't go out this weekend because I'm lazy like that "ya know " LOL.

I joined deviantART yesterday and I'm so addicted to it at the moment. Being a deviant feels so hellla good baby ;) HAHA . I uploaded mh photography & a writing piece so far and there's sure more to come ! Check it out , its not thes best format yet and needs some fixing to do , but still check it out :)

My iTunes shuffle can be so random seriously. Yes you may go * WTF that's why its called iTunes shuffle MARIBELLEEEE ! * This song called " Every Girl " by Drake , Lil Wayne and all these other rappers come on and I'm like wtf? :| Its very dirty indeed. The rappers are saying that they want to " fuck every girl in the world" :| What a lovely goal there Drake HAHAHAHAH. They always claim that they like girls with caramel skin & thick asses. How racist D: Well not like I care anyway LOL. Typing " asses" was weird because I usually write it arse or arses. We all have our ways of writing yes?

I went out to buy some stuff for my mother today & I saw quite a fine lad today ! HAHAHAHAHAH. Did I sound like a sluzza? Well that was my aim ;) But seriously , he was very good looking :) Its quite dissapointing though because 5 minutes later a girl came up to him and hugged him D: Are all the good looking lads taken int his world? D: D: Nah , I don't care. I don't really wanna be in a relationshipat the moment. I want to achieve all these other stuff before I can even think of that yet.

well I'm off for tonight guys !

x  ¶ 8:04 PM 0 Comments

  new beginnings? I woke up at lunch today & I”m a bit dissapointed about it. Its probably because I slept at midnight last night. My morning was actually quite awesome because my mother told us that we would be getting a monthly allowance of 50 dollars :D I know to some people that may be nothing but to me its like pure brilliance :) The even better thing is that my mother’s going to give me 70 dollars but my sister doesn’t know it LOLOLOL. My mother said that she’s not going to be an abusive mother and we had a hug (yes a hug you read it right) Will my family find the pieces together in time?

I plan to study for Maths today & I really have to. My laziness is winning though and I’m being so lazy -.- I feel like finishing that Korean movie and I want to watch Hana Kimi ( Taiwanese Version ) all over again and see my gorgeous boyfriend Wu Chun ! :D ( omg i just so wish so ) I’m also super happy because my Maths assignment got a two week extension because they made a new revised version because the old one was too complex. WOOOOHOO !

Now , I feel so fucked up right now. My sister can be the biggest fuckhead out I swear. She was behind me reading this and I’m like WHAT THE FUCK? She read the boyfriend bit and she full thought that Wu Chun was my real boyfriend. BUWAHHAHAHAHHHAHAHAAHAH -.- She even told my mother and now she thinks I have a boyfriend. Fucking hell man ; some things will never change. If anyone is willing to try and change my sister , I WILL ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOU ! HAHA

well I’m off for now ;)

alright whatsup with that winky :|

xo  ¶ 12:33 PM 0 Comments

  home on a friday school day ; long weekend? I felt sick yesterday and I felt terrible so I didn’t go to school. I must say thanks to Carol for dropping off my house and getting my excursion money & note for me as today was the last day to bring it in =) My mother didn’t have work today so that’s a mega put down. Of course, we had an arguement as everyday. She pisses me off so much + she has the biggest mood swings its quite scary really. I’m missing out on a great school day though D: In English, we’re watching Macbeth which would be quite intresting and for Commerce, it would be a bludge because Sir won’t be here and Religion would be the laptops probably. OMGGG , i’m missing out on pretty good stuff + I’m missing the kids D:

I stayed in bed for most of the time. I logged on facebook via mobile & yes I will miss the free Facebook access for 3 customers ( it ends the end of this month D: ) I helped my mother with some stuff though because I had to but then she was nice enough of her to shout me Hungry Jacks later on. I feel so tired man , my shoulders are dropping , my hair ‘s a hella mess and my eyes feel weary ugh. This image would probably be attracting all those paparrazos out there.

well I’m off to take some more rest

till next blog  ¶ 11:37 AM 0 Comments

  oh please ; don't be so obseesed with us. No, I don't like that Obsessed song by Mariah Carey ; but I felt the need to put it as my title for some certain reason and yes Elyssa & Carol would know LOL. Today was not the best but not the absolute worst. I felt absolute crap after lunch and extremely moody. I did Indoor Soccer and to be honest , it wasn't that bad. I had my laughs and I eventually cheered up :) Thanks to Rebecca ! (Y) I had double Maths ugh right? We went through all this shit & crap I didn't even fucking get -.- I seriously need to go through it. The thing I only loved about Maths today was that we got a new revised version of the Maths assignment :D :D :D :D :D :D Its now due on the 9th of September and no longer due on Monday :D WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO ! The test though is still on Monday but at least I have more time to study and go through stuff :) In English today, I had to read these long bits that Macbeth reads in the play " Macbeth " by William Shakespeare. I didn't mind much really , had the Elizabethan language yes but oh well LOL.

This afternoon was quite scandalous and weird. This is when my title becomes relevant. Let's just say that some people simply "love" you ; they'll simply follow you and give their best dirty stare ever. Oh please , we don't need that kinda attitude coz we cool like that (H) HAHAHAHAHAHA ! But of course , it was the usual Thursday afternoon at my local mall , all different coloured uniforms from all different schools. Its like a parade really , and its probably because Thursday is the day when it closes the latest. Overall , a tiring day .

I might not go to school tomorrow because I'm not feeling the best. I feel great a minute then I feel crap the next. I really need a break and I'm feeling like this is probably because of my fucked eating and sleeping patterns I'm having these days. Today will be a good today tomorrow because not much is on. In English , we're going to be watching Macbeth the play on video which will be good , and for Commerce it will be a bludge because my original teacher won't be here :D Double Science though is a shame but oh well , nothing too strenuous just boring really. I have Religion , laptops most probably LOL. PDHPE Prac tomorrow so we're gonna be working on our dances. I seriously don't know man.

well I'm off to take some well deserved rest :)

till next blog

xo  ¶ 5:21 PM 0 Comments

  some things we can't change Today was a very tiring day and I’m not joking. I went counsellor today with Elyssa and was talking about several issues about my life and other stuff. In Science, my experiment draft got accepted :D Though, I have to be really really careful but oh well ; I’m sure I’ll handle it :D

All these assignments are coming and its not even funny. My study desk is like a total mess. I have all these assessment notifications and papers all over my desk , it doesn’t even look like a working space -.- I seriously need to train myself for university LOL.

You know what? I’ve really changed when I look back to when I was in Year 7 or 8. There’s some factors me that are the same but I’ve changed in a way too. My outlook towards life is more optimistic and alive.

After these assignments , I have to study for my SAT exam on 10th of October :| I want to do some photoshoots though with my film camera which I haven’t used in yonks. Hopefully , I can fit all these tasks in my schedule LOL !

Free facebook for 3 customers is ending D: No more random facebook sessions LOL. But yet again, I have less distractions :P Everything has its pros and cons yes?

well I’m going to take some rest & chill

till next blog

xo  ¶ 4:51 PM 0 Comments

  not even 111 questions ) Are you really ready for 111 questions?
bring it ; i'm ready.

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
never been in a relationship.

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
my mother which was like a week ago.

5) Do you regret it?
to be honest ; yes.

6) Have you ever been depressed?
yes ; in a way.

WHERES NUMBER 7? : haha sneaky.

8) Are you a boy or girl?
girl

9) What is your relationship status?
single

10) How do you want to die?
a peaceful and painless death.

11) What did you last eat?
chocolate nut & fruit biscuits :)

12) Played any sports?
tennis

13) Do you bite your nails ?
ew no.

14) When was your last physical fight?
haha ; i don't roll like that.

15) Do you have an attitude?
at times.

16) Do you like someone?
no

actually on second thought ; Wu Chun ;) <33
LOL

17) What is your real name?
Maribelle Grace Biscocho Omar

WHERES 18?: haha oh well

19) Are you gonna get high later ?
na , i might go to bed later.

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
nope.

21) Do you miss someone?
nah not atm.

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
twirl

23) Do you tan a lot?
no.

24) Have any pets?
no

25) How exactly are you feeling?
chilled

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
yes

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
no

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
no exes.

29) Are you scared of spiders?
depends on how big it is

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
yes.

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
sometimes yes ; but if those things didn't happen , I wouldn't be who I am today.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
assignments , chill , sleep , eat , church

33) Do you want to have kids?
maybe , maybe not.

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
no.

35) Do you type fast?
haha well some people say I do.

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
yeah ; one in each ear.

37) Want any more?
no thanks

38) Can you spell well?
haha yeah ; i loved spelling bees in primary :)

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
yes.

40) What are you craving right now?
nothing really ; i'm thirsty though.

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
no.

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
yes

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
no

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
in a way yes.

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
nopes.

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
N/A

WHERES 48 : laters to 48.

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
maybe ; if it was just like room mate styles.

50) What should you be doing ?
I'm meant to try go back to my old sleeping patterns but epic failure.

51) What’s irritating you right now?
assignments esp. maths.

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
nah.

53) Does somebody love you?
i'd like to think so :)

54) What is your favorite colour ?
blue.

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
haha yeahs.

57) Do you have trust issues?
depends

WTH MAN.: omg lol

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
no.

they missed out on questions 58, 59, 60, 61 ?: goood LOL.

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
N/A

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
mother.

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
no.

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive.

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
not really ; 2008 was the best <3

67) What was your child hood nickname?
Belle :)

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
no :|

69 where are youuu?
my bedroom.

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
yes.

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
read.

-.- : haha.

73) What is bothering you?
maths assi.

74) Have you ever been out of your province?
yes.

75) Do you play the Wii?
i did twice lol.

76) Are you listening to music right now?
yes.

77) Do you like Chinese food?
yes.

78) Do you know your fathers b- day?
yeah ; 11th May.

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
no

80) Is cheating ever okay?
never.

81) Are you mean?
at times.

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
never LOL.

where the heck is 83 ???? just coz this quiz isn't 111 questions

84) Do you believe in true love?
yeah

88) Do you like the outside?
yes

89) Are you currently bored?
yes

90) Do you wanna get married?
maybe ; maybe not.

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
my opinion : not really.

92) Are you hungry?
no; more like thirsty

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
no

94) What makes you happy?
with the people that make my life beautiful <3

95) Would you change your name?
never :)

96) Ever been to Alaska?
yeah ; but just a stopover.

what the puck ? where's 97 ?

98) Do you watch the news?
yes/

99) What’ s your zodiac sign?
Aries.

100) Do you like Subway?
no


101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
haha ; doesn't apply to me.

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
omg ; just like in the movies D: D:
i'll get back to this one yes?
LOL.

103) Do you talk like your friends?
hm in a way yes ; in a way no.

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
yes.

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
yes.

107) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
dad.

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
yes it does matter.

109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Carol :)

110) Favourite lyrics right now?
(8) I follow you , you follow me (8)
Let Your Love Grow - Passion Pit.

111) Can you count to one million?
yes ; but cbb.  ¶ 10:48 PM 0 Comments

  Goal # 3 : Fall back into my old sleeping patterns. This morning, I woke up at 11 : 05 ( which is very late to me ) I usually wake up around 8 - 9 at the latest even on the weekend. I used to sleep around 9 or 10 at the latest but now I sleep around midnight or 1 am. OMG , but its Saturday and what a relief no school. This morning was weird because when I found out the time, I was like NO NO NO , I slept in for school D: It took me 30 seconds to realise that it was Saturday.

Things to do for today:

1) Touch ups on my English assignment

2) Finish at least half of my Maths assignment ( would be a miracle though)
3) Make another Science experiment draft ( because I know that the experiment I submitted will be rejected anyway)

4) Finish watching Friends Wish Coming True ( its a Korean movie)

I plan to finish those things by today or tomorrow. It sucks though because I’m grounded & I can’t go to Susan’s birthday party D: Sorry , Susan by the way ! Well ,since I’m grounded I must as well make some efficient use of my time.

well till next blog tumblrs ( is there such thing? :o)

xo  ¶ 11:38 AM 0 Comments

  weekend filled with schoolwork I'm glad its the weekend , that 's one thing but another thing is that I have assignments and they are absolutely suck the the max. I also have this PDHPE dance which is going good so far :) Today was alright except for the fact that I forgot my school diary at home today which had my science experiment draft was due today -.- Thank goodness though that I memorised my experiment so I re wrote it on the bus & in HSIE :) I have a habit of leaving the house last minute and end up running for the bus , and I always make it on time. Its a great morning excercise yes?

Last night, I logged in the mySat website and I went through the Practice Test. I 'm screwed for the Maths section D: After these assignments , I'm going to put my head into the preperation for SAT exam.

I'm really hungry at the moment , but there's no food at the moment which isn't really a suprise really at my home LOL. I'm just polishing up my English assignment , but ugh gotta do Maths now :@ Maths & Science are my worst subjects & I absolutely loathe them ughhh. English & History are my favourite subjects :)

well I'm going to logg off and play Facebook games :D

till next blog bloggerss :D

xo  ¶ 4:22 PM 0 Comments

  tumblr? I've been thinking of making a Tumblr account. Hey, don't get me wrong; I love Blogger but I think it'd be good having a Tumblr account too. Don't worry , I'm still going to be writing in this as much as possible. Tumblr seems to be very cool & very easy. I'm confident I can handle two blogging accounts. I'll let you know when I make a Tumblr so you can check it out once I make one :)

Short blog I know just for this :P

well I'm off & take care bloggers
xo  ¶ 9:02 PM 0 Comments

  apple diet? This week has been a bit busy I should say ! All these assignments coming in & the my diary was getting heavier and bulkier. I cleaned it out yesterday though and now its light as a feather :) JEMC (the bestfs) got new lockets today :) Credit to Carol & Elyssa for finding them on sale from $10 to $ 3 , don't you love it when you find a bargain? I got my English exam back today and it's not that great , 51/75. I feel I could do better especially with those diary entries which I rushed so bad. If I was staying here for Year 11, I would have the courage to take on Advanced English & Extension 1 :) My Maths teacher is going to be away for the whole of this week ! :)
I'm mostly happy because no more tense waiting for getting picked to do a question. But yet again, I need to learn and the teacher we're having teaches like a rat.

My weekend will be busy. I'm going to Susan's 17th birthday party on Saturday & I need to work on the assignments for the weekend D: I also need to remember to give in my Science experiment draft before Friday. I loathe the Science assignment ugh.
Science & Maths are my weakest subjects. I absolutely loathe them ! I'm more of a Humanties person yes I know. Since the start of Term 3 , I've been having 1 or if not 2 apples a day. My lunch is an apple and its not enough seriously. I was hungry straight after lunch. I was very hungry and could hear my tummy rumbling.

This morning , I had a very bad headache. The bus was jam packed. There was these guys next to me standing , and they smelled quite horrid. A mixture of Lynx & sweat. Don't get me wrong , I love the smell of Lynx but with sweat? No thanks. The scent made me really dizzy and I felt I was going to take a nap but I was too worried to take a nap. When I got the bus, of course the girls start flirting with the guys who's waiting for the bus as well. Not a surprise really.

I'm also been very occupied with the Facebook games. I can be very competitive. I get easily hyped especially with Typing Maniac. I feel so sorry for my keyboard and the pain its been through. No wonder my old mouse and keyboard broke down on me. I need to be more careful seriously.

well I'm out for now & I just realised that I'm not even on MSN :o

till next blog & stay safe bloggers !
xo  ¶ 5:09 PM 0 Comments

  expression of disgust I don't know if I will be able to forget all those times you've hurt me or betrayed me. Everytime you said I was disgraceful and useless, it felt like I lost a piece of myself. You think I'm handling it okay , but really I'm not. Your words are fake and meaningful. How could you do this to people? I seriously thought you weren't like the rest of them. But now , I have realised how your not even an inch of a difference compared to them all. Its not all fun and games anymore , we're both old enough to know what 's right and wrong. Cut the bullshit and speak what you really feel. Your words of filthy pride disgusts me. I can't believe you , all your worthless promises and confessions. In the end , all I have to say to you is that your the one that lost not me , because I'm just getting started and one day you'll see me happier than ever.

Sorry,just felt like writing some emotive language. I was inspired with a bit of myself but mostly other people 's situations. Sorry don't feel like talking much , but don't worry I'm fine :)

till next blog
xo  ¶ 5:26 PM 0 Comments

  Must release negative energy. Like the title says , it promises a lot. Today at sport , I went to bowling although I'm meant to be at rock climbing but ah cbf seriously. Carol & I got the shit when the teacher actually counted today. She noticed that there were extra girls -.- Of course , Carol & I got told off BIG TIME. I was saying my apologies & she wanted to give us a afternoon detention but I wouldn't give up. In the end , she let us in for just today but was still angry at us. BUT OH NO , THE STORY DOESN'T END THERE DARL ! When we were leaving, she gave Carol & I the signal to leave so we did. When we were outside, these Year 9 girls call us saying that the teacher was calling us. Oh fuck, she was very angry and raging. She said stuff like "How dare you turn your back at me?" Well , we didn't mean too and how are we suppose to hear you in such a busy area with like two schools? She also gave us the signal to go and now she calls us back and gets pissed at us because we didn't get our names marked? How the fuck do Carol & I get our names marked off if we're not even on the roll , and besides you know that Carol & I are here because 1 : You told us off before we went in. 2: You gave us the signal to go and giving me direct eye contact. SUCK ON THAT.

Anyways let's move on that shall we? :) I had Maths for most of the day. Periods 1 & 2 , all Year 10 had to do the Westpac Maths Competition -.- Ugh. After that , we had double maths JOY ! :| This is the last thing I needed seriously , but I got through it so yeah (Y) Tomorrow is Jeans for Genes day , so we get to wear mufti (H)

anyways I'm tired & off

till next blog
xo  ¶ 5:06 PM 0 Comments

  life really is beautiful. This afternoon, I had a bit of a debate with one of my bestfs Carol and she said that life is balanced but I claim that life is beautiful. Yes, people go through shit and the rough times but we may not realize it but those are the things that make us who are we today. I believe strongly in my opinion because through my personal experience. I understand that some people may not understand what I've been through but on what I've gone through, I have a lot to say. I'm that kind of person that sticks to their statement,no matter what people say. I don't let people 's opinions influence my opinion. I stand my own ground basically. Woah, that was serious LOL.

Time to loosen up now , well its Year 11 2010 Subject Selection night and 70 percent of my grade 's at school at the moment and I'm at home chilling I guess. I'm currently reading a book entitled "Homecoming" by Bernhard Schlink. The blurb really got me intrested. Its set in the post - war Germany period , which makes things more intresting because I'm a history lover :)I also plan to read his other best time seller "The Reader" As you've noticed, I'm more of the Humanities type of person. I plan to do Literature in university :) I really love reading and writing. If I did year 11 here, I would do English Advanced and Extension 1 , SERIOUSLY ! LOL.

I really need the weekend, it feels like the week is going so slow. By the way, here's the book I'm reading at the moment.



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xo  ¶ 6:20 PM 0 Comments

  a great kickstart for a Monday? I thought this morning was going to be usual , you know school and stuff.Oh boy I was wrong. I thought I was going to miss the early bus today & but I just made it :) I caught the bus with two of my gorgeous friends Priyam & Natasha. On our way to school, the school bus suddenly stopped and there was this dead silence. In my head , my thoughts were " Oh fuck, don't tell me the bus is screwed" So basically , yes the bus' engine stopped. You may be asking was I late to school? Yeah, I was but not as late I guess. So you could call that a great kickstart for the first school day of the week?

I might trade my old professional camera which is a Minolta for a new one which I plan to be the * drumroll * EOS 300X Body ;) But of course if anyone who is a camera expert that would love to give in suggestions , feel free XD. Of course I'm going to miss my baby (my good old Nikon) but I guess I need one step forward. I want to keep both but I'm seriously out of cash.

Tomorrow is the Year 11 Subject Evening. I'm definetely not doing Year 11 here but I'm still going because my mother needs to talk to the Ciriculumn teacher about me going overseas and yeah. On Friday, its mufti :) We get to wear our own clothes instead of our uniform WOOOHOOO ! Our school hardly has days like this so its a good change for a day.

anyways here is the sparkler I plan on buying.


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xo  ¶ 5:53 PM 0 Comments

  what a lazy weekend. Yesterday, I woke up really late around 11 (well to my standards anyway) LOL. I continued to fil out my uni applications then I fell asleep LOL. I woke up around 3 and I felt very odd. I went on the computer and yeah nothing much as you can see. I felt really lazy. I'm planning to exchange my old Canon camera for a better one with a great SLR quality. Any suggestions? just comment the blog :D

Anyways, Friday night was fucked. My parents always wreck it for me. They always accuse me for shit I wouldn't even do. They shouldn't judge just because there are other teenagers that do shit that doesn't mean I do it too. The relationship with my parents will never change.

I need to collect money for 40 hour famine at school. For my program, I'm not going to fight with my mother for 48 hours , that's pretty hard for me I should say. I feel so lazy though , I can't be bothered preparing and stuff D: Damn, mother's calling me for like the x 120420 time. Its another school week tomorrow and its the start of August. The days seem to go faster than chasing cars.

I shall now try and make an effort and get money for 40 hour famine which is due tomorrow D:

well till next blog :)
xo  ¶ 10:52 AM 0 Comments